the rahtopia.

from a whisper to a scream

2007-01-14T01:29:00.000+11:00

"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost. And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait."

sorry eilania. didnt mean it.

finito

2007-01-09T22:03:00.000+11:00

i'm done living a lie.
the truth always rears its ugly head.
nothing is ever what it seems.

this blog is closed.

finito

2007-01-07T22:39:00.001+11:00

oh, and that reminds me. jo? rain's coming to singapore on the 21st of jan. sucks to be you. =]

<3 rahrah

YESSSSS. the internets up!

2007-01-07T22:18:00.000+11:00

went out with dad to funan the IT mall yesterday. he bought a computer. =]]]]]] yes yes i know i'm a nerd.

ANNNYWAY. i've been getting super pissed. why? WHY? the bloody new router just wont work! i'm using my old one here. the new one sucks! somehow i cant even get into blogger, or register my comp for the warranty. IT STINKS! blistering barnacles.

anyway. what have i been up to? nothing much i guess. some huge blow out fights with my brother dearest, trying to study for the SATs, getting my bloody left eye lid slit open by the eye surgeon to get all that pus and blood out, ummmmm. let me think. anymore? OH YES. getting the worst cramps i've ever gotten since last year (yes that means 2006) and sitting around wishing i was at orientation with my friends. yea, thats about it.

it stinks when everyones on holiday and youre not. it also stinks when youre on holiday and everyone else isnt. BLAH. life stinks. been watching greys anatomy recently. and wooooh! i'm telling ya, sandra oh is my new idol. eric dane is my new hottie. and IZZIE STEVENS IS MY NEW INTENDED MURDER TARGET! although i know shes a character and i cant kill a tv character I STILL HATE HER THAT STUPID ANNOYING BEEEEEETCH! so yea. =]]

anyway, i realise i havent spoken much about spain. nothing much to tell, really. there was this family with a REALLY annoying kid when i just wanted to stab and slit and physically mutilate with knives and my fists and do very bad stuff to which involves pushing his nose bone up his skull into his brain turning it to mush BECAUSE I HATE KIDS! groowwwwwwl.

so. yea. other than that were heaps of bankers and big shot people on the trip. i hung around people who wore prada burberry loewe LV dior AND EVERYTHING ELSE WHICH I CANNOT AFFORD!! (sob) and my annoying brother who gave me the hardest time of my life being SO FRICKIN embarrassing! and. annoying people as well. annoying, happy people who talk. couldnt stand them. bah.

AAANYWAY. i'm lazy i'm gonna watch greys anatomy now. LATERS CHICCCCCAS!

2006-12-31T15:08:00.000+11:00

10 days of spain. 2 flights of 24 hours. incredibly beautiful sights. eye candy in barcelona.

what can i say?

Christina Aguilera - Welcome

2006-12-20T01:23:00.000+11:00

welcome to the greatest show
greatest show on earth
you've never seen before
here the fairytale unfolds

what's behind the smoke and glass?
painted faces, everybody wears a mask
are you selling them your soul?
well you'll be left out in the cold

is it all blue skies
fun and games untill you fall
then you're left without anyone at all
you're riding on a shooting star
with a smile upon your face
but soon the shine fades

and you're left out all alone
wondering where did they all go?

been jaded, hated,
who'll be around when the limelight's faded?
been shut down, pushed out
~~made to smile when i wanted to frown~~

always taking a bow
always working the crowd
always breaking new ground
always playing the clown
who'll be sticking it out?
who'll be staying around
when the lights go down?

i feel so alone

school report.

2006-12-18T03:32:00.000+11:00

my school report arrived. what can i say?

i'm just so disappointed. theres nothing much i can say. i mean, i did do well for chemistry and all.. its just the math that has me so down. apparently my performance this semester is "much more varied than before", and that my confidence in the subject has suffered as a result of problems in force diagrams and careless mistakes.

i dont know i feel such an immense sense of.. i dont know what i feel. i'm pissed with my dad too, its not like i didnt try. fuck hell i'm not your bloody A+ student. i tried and thats all that i can give. it never is enough. i cant fucking get into stanford and thats it. i'll just fucking apply straight to UCLA or something. fuck.

and after high school, its college. and then work. it never fucking ends. its a cycle, over and over again. disappointment regret anger confusion.

again.

2006-12-15T19:18:00.000+11:00

stood up. again.

FRAGRANCES!!

2006-12-14T03:13:00.000+11:00

WHEEEE HEE HEE HEE HEE HEEEE! just bought the anna sui secret wish christmas set. it that was $87 for 50 ml secret wish fragrance, 100 ml bath and shower gel and 100 ml of mosturising lotion. YESYESYESSS!! but now i have a new obsession. guess guess? anyone?

i am in LOVE. it is so pretty! That's Amore TATTOO LEI by Gai Mattiolo

a new love!! <3<3<3

anyone want to go out? please? =[[

results!

2006-12-12T01:53:00.000+11:00

i just got back my chinese results. and i did like total fuck. 34 our of 50. but then its scaled up, so i think its an equivalent of about, 44? which is pretty good. =]] was really asd just now, but i think my friends really cheered me up.

so heres thanks to van, nina, alison, lida, lydia, tom. thanks heaps. =]

anyway. i'm gettin really stressed out about the whole year 12 thing. i really want a 99 and above (the highest u can get is 99.95, and only 2 people in the entire state get it. thats 2 out of 98354876484342876186 people.), but i dont think i can get it. =[[[!! its like the O levels all over again. just harder this time. the people in aussie are fricking geniuses man.

anyway i went down to town today, did a bit of shopping. sorry nic, i think i had some sort of misunderstanding with you, so i got pissed and decided to go out with someone else instead. sorry! went out with nina, and walked around. far east has realllllly cute stuff! i'm just trying not to spend too much now, though. i'm frickin broke. spent 112 bucks today. $23 on a top for myself, and 66 on flats. and another 23 on a top for nina that she liked but didnt want to buy for her birthday. and now i'm brokkkkke! =[[

eww. i'm sticky and sweaty now! i really hate the singaporean weather! absolute crap, i tell ya. pfft. better go for a shower now. taa guys! (or as jo says, "taa gaiiiis!")

<3<3

melbourne 2006

2006-12-08T21:46:00.000+11:00

i am going to be very emo now, if you'll forgive me.

my work experience just ended.

the school year is over.

there it goes - 1 year down the drain.

looking back on this year, i think i've definately learnt alot. moving to a new country, leaving loved ones behind, and making new friends, opening up your comfort zone and ajusting to a new environment. and looking back, i realise that i've actually discovered who my real friends are. i think back and wonder, how much do i actually know about you? and realisation dawns. nothing.

sure, i know who you are. i know what you like, what you dont. but what do i know about you?

nothing.

people that i have fun with and very different to the people that i actually talk to. to people that i actually see how your mind works, how you think, and things that you keep guarded behind stony faces, thank you for this year. its been truely blissful for me.

but people who just stand there, refusing to let me, or anyone for that matter, into that damned mind of yours, to make us stay strangers although we are friends? i'm sorry i've never seemed enough of a friend to you. i sincerely am.

goodbye melbourne, plc, burwood, for this year.

work experience. pfft.

2006-12-05T20:55:00.000+11:00

work experience. what can i say.

absolute disaster.

i just wasted 8 hours of my life, and shall continue to do so everyday for the next 3 days. i am so counting the same till i get home. AHHHHH.

ps: jo? i doubt you'd ever read this, but yes. i am obsessed with you. NOW GET ONLINE U BITCH! hahaha. =]

and no i'm not lesbian.

MONEYYY

2006-12-03T13:22:00.000+11:00

I AM BROKE. BROKE BROKE BROKE BROKE BROKE.

went to the basement yesterday, and i went broke. =[[ i bought this GORRRGEOUS miss shop red dress, and a miss shop belt. cos mt 60 bucks. the dress was 25% off, but oh well. i can wear it to dee's party next year. now all i gotta do is buy a pair or black, HOTTT 3 inch heels. i can find them in novo, i reckon. =]]]

the boarding house is realllly sad now. nearly everyone has left, and theres a grand total of 8 of us left. from 100 to 8. how... nice. i feel so loved. HAHA. but yea. sophia's gonna come get my luggage tonight, and damn. i'm not even prepared yet. =[[[[ i need to pack. and go with frano to burwood to buy a pair or tweezers. NO TIMMME.

but yeah. i have 50 bucks to last me for the whole of next week. bloody screwed. i have no idea how to buy lunch ad all. (hot tip: a plate of food here costs at least 7 bucks) =[[[[ sarah's gonna have to scringe. =[

and yes, miss lania lee. i will try to get the hotel voucher from daddy dearest okay? no promises, though. =]]

just for jiawen if she reads this: I MISS YOUUUU!!! saw the 'super sarah' thing you made for me, and i miss you like feeeerrreeeaaak. =] i'll see you soon!

<3 sarah

ITS OVERRRR!

2006-11-25T11:25:00.000+11:00

ITS OVERRR!!! EXAMS ARE OVERRRR!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

hee. yeaaaa. exams are over life officially begins now. HAHA. went to chadstone and knox to buy stuff. spent like, money. AHAHA. so happy. SHOPPING! heee. the first thing i'm gonna invest in when i get to singapore is a PUSH UP BRA. so need one of those. i need BREASTS.

going out to tash's party now. i dont know how the feck to get there! and it's a bloddy hour from here.

POMG HAVE TO LEAVE. LATE!

<3<3

2006-11-20T12:23:00.000+11:00

spec math was horrible. terrible. i came back feeling pretty happy bout myself when i realised that i made a badbadbad mistake at the first part of a HUGE kinematics question. =[[ damn you, analysis.

thanks nicole su and lania lee who posted at my shout box. it made me realise how much i really miss those time. i wanna get home NOW! NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!!!

=[[

CAN EVERYONE PLEASE GET A MYSPACE AND ADD ME?? =]]]]

i have a myspace addiction. =]]]

2006-11-19T13:18:00.000+11:00

and did i forget to mention that i'm fat AS now?

i have a pillow on my tummy. permanent pillow. its under my skin, so i cant remove it.
i have arms the size of pig thighs.
i have THIGHS the size of china.
i have a butt that can crush the whole of London.

i need to lose weight before i find my hot guy in spain.

chinese was HORRIBLE!

2006-11-19T13:06:00.001+11:00

chinese was HORRIBLE! thursday was a horrible horrible horrible day. okay so my time table's like this:

thursday
math methods
chinese year 12

friday
english
chemistry

monday
specialist maths

wednesday
physics

OMGGGG. so bad so bad. thurday was horrible. the math paper was easy AS. it was easy peasy, and i was so glad with myself after i finished it. but then as we were handing in our papers, i looked down, and realised under all the loose paper, there was an ANSWER SHEET for multiple choice answers! OH NOOO. i almost died. and i had to put my hand up and tell the teacher. she she was like, oh just write your name on the sheet and hand it in. i'll see what i can do. =[[[[[!!

chinese. i died. listrening was easy AS. but then reading and responding was on SUN YAT SEN. oh my goodness. i almost died. and my essay was horrible! it was one of the worst essays i have EVER written. =[[[

but anyway. english and chemistry were do-able. macbeth was screwed up, but my creative essay was okay. i wrote about rape. heeheehee. and chemistry? hah i had this whole section on greenhouse gases and all that i FORGOT to study. but i managed to remember some stuff i think. HEEHEEHEE.

but yea. hows everyone been doing? i'm sorry i've kinda been caught up in my studies so i havent had a chance to check out everyones blogs and so on. i will soon! today, actually. I WILL! =]]]

20 DAYS TILL SARAH REACHES HOME! =]]]]]

chinese was HORRIBLE!

2006-11-19T13:06:00.000+11:00

exammmss!

2006-11-15T13:36:00.000+11:00

EXAMS!
that dreaded word. i've got 2 exams tmr, and 2 the day after. chinese is tomorrow! and its my year 12 subject. so yeah. i'm deaded. HAHA.

anyway. been pretty stoned recently. i ate like, half a HUGE packet or mnm mints. and smiths chicken flavoured chips, and a bowl of meegoreng (instant noodles). SHIT. like nicole says. i have BREASTS! just not where i want them. =[[
and my thighs are so big i can FLY with them.
and my chest is so flat an airplane can take off on it.
and.
and.
and.

i have to start running.

PS: BE BACK IN 3 WEEKS! (i think. i cant really count)

and brendan. rozanne the bitch sold the cowboys you bought to jodie for 5 dollars. the baileys i drank was someone elses. i think she sold the baileys too.

i miss vera too! and chrystal! =[[ omg how random. my malaysian friends came up to me yesterday screaming, OHMYGAWSH! SARAH DO YOU KNOW AN ELIA BAJARI? SHES DAMNDAMNDAMN HOTTTT!! hahaha. LOLLLLLL. so i started looking at my 4e9 pictures. and i MISS THOSE DAYS. other than my face, and my hair, my dress sense, and my body.. MISS EVERYTHING BUT ME. =]]

HAHAHAHAHA.

i miss eilania!

2006-11-13T11:56:00.000+11:00

EILANIA! this post is for you.

I MISS YOUUUUUU!!!!!

I MISCH CHOO!!!

=]]]=]]=]]]

straight hair!

2006-11-12T13:07:00.000+11:00

thats me with straightened hair!

straightened hair again

and thats jodie's FLLATTT butt. =]

so yea. yesterday night we played poker again, and drank. it was pretty embarrassing, cos i got tipsy quite fast, and i had to go kiss one of the year 12s as a dare on the nose. so i went up, grabbed her face, and kissed her. on her NOSE. i think i kinda missed abit, though. couldnt really tell. HAHA. was pretty bad. i think she's scared of me now. SO EMBARRASSINGGG!!

so thats it for yesterday. gotta go do my work now. BYEE!

new boarding house!

2006-11-09T19:39:00.000+11:00

i'm back in the boarding house! yeahhh!

hee yeah i know. pretty gay huh. but i kinda like the boarding house. it's... fun. HAHA. anw guess what! i bought... for 10 dollars... A TEXAS HOLDEM POKER SET! yeaaaa i know. AWESOME! i cant wait to start playing with it! its my BBBABY. YAYYY.

anyway nicole u fuckhead. i texted you and you didnt reply! bitchface.

hello!

2006-11-04T19:32:00.000+11:00

hello!

i'm in nina's home now. in glen waverly. woke up at like, 11 today and went to vermont south shopping centre. then we went to the glen for lunch and shopping. i bought 2 pairs of satin boxers! one pair has "SCREW YOU GUYS" and a picture of southpark dude (forgot whats his name. the one that isnt kenny or stan or kyle), and another with a dead kenny and "OH MY GOD! THEY KILLED KENNY AGAIN!" rotfl. hilarious, i tell you. and theyre SATIN! oh man. i'm broke now.

so guess what. comeon. any guesses? no?

I'M GOING TO SPAIN AT THE END OF THE YEAR!

yeahhhh!! i so cant wait! it's gonna be awesome! and its the first family holiday in AAAAGES so i'm totally looking forward to it! yayyy. =]]

anyway. hows everyone? i just downloaded creep by radiohead. omg, <3<3<3 =]]

whatever makes you happy
whatever you want
you're so fucking special
i wish i was special

but i'm a creep,
i'm a weirdo
what the hell am I doin' here?
i don't belong here

(not that i mean it anyway or am hinting anything..)

i updated my wishlist! go see!

PICTURESSS!!

2006-11-01T10:13:00.000+11:00

PICTURESSSS!

heehee. =]]

hee. this was term 3. i got lazy putting up pictures!

lameass tashe and allison.

bloody nina tried to wake me up by building a mountain of soft toys on me. didnt exactly work. HAHAHA.

nina the mushroom sleeping

me with a pirate hat. (you cant see the crossbones properly, though)

heehee. during the year 12's last day, they took pictures of us, and kinda like, put stupid pictures of themselves on top of us and all. so this is one of the examples. HAHA. omg there were like, 6 stupid pictures of me up! HAHAHA.

so yes. that good? =]]

muck up day!

2006-10-26T09:45:00.000+10:00

HELLO! long time no see! i dont think anyone actually comes here, but what the hell. iot was a helluva last week for us last week! it was thye year 12s last week, so it was like, really emotional and all. on thursday we had the leavers assembly, which is like, the year 12s last assembly.it was so emotional i almost cried!! =[[

and then on friday was MUCK UP DAY. okay u see. on thurday night, the year 12s are usually allowed to do whatever they like for the night, even go out of the boarding house. but this year they said no. so they were really bummed out. so sweet lil me, decided to write an ANONYMOUS cheer up letter. but NOOOO! they recognised the handwriting! and at 2 am this HUGE load of year 12s walk into my room and i'm like, AHHH! IT WASNT MEE! but of course, by saying that, its obvious it WAS me. =[

anyway. muck up day. its like this day where year 12s can do whatever they want with us. AHH OH SWHIT. we had to wake up at like, 5 am, when lydia started screaming into the PA system. (imagine strangling a chicken,. thats what it sounds like) and then they pulled us up and made up do star jumps, run around, draew on our faces with lipsticks. i looked like a panda! lyhdia tried to spray our hair red but she bought the cheap pokkai hair spray so it didnt work. HAHAHA. anyway. we were divided into groups and had to do this obstacle course. in other words, we hyad to dig through, roll through, crawl through.. blahblahblah through... sour milk, vegemite (like marmite), honey, dog food, cat food, spagetti, wasabi, honey, sweet sauce, flour, custard.. i looked like a CAKE at the end of it. i was full of LAYERS! and i STANK!! ughhh. it was FOUL! but i enjoyed it. =]] i'm gonna miss the year 12s!!

anywya. theres been heaps of stuff happening in the boarding house. i had fights with a couple of people, and now everythings kinda screwed up. i think i rather enjoy just hanging and chilling with the year 12s. i mena, i love my roomies and all, but i just need a break from all the drama. and i hate feeling insecure as well. =[[

hows everyone? my shout box isnt working, i think i shld get a new one. but which? i hope the new one doesnt get blocked my the schoool once they get the internet fixed.. i can access everything now that the internets screwed. AHAHA.

anyway. anyone has MYSPACE? http://www.myspace.com/simplesaraddictive ADD ME!

hello!

2006-10-09T12:58:00.000+10:00

hello!

i'm back here!! everythings pretty much the same, the boarding comittee's chosen, and blahblahblah. so yeah. eveyrthings pretty much okay. my chinese oral's coming up, though. and i'm pissing myself worrying about all that 16 pages that i have to memorise by next week. SHEEEET!!

=[[

2006-10-02T20:20:00.000+10:00

miss those days. =[

i miss home.

2006-10-02T16:41:00.000+10:00

i'm due to leave sg at 1150 pm tonight. =[[

met up with lania and vera just now at parkway. omg it was awesome talking to lania! no matter what they say, girl, you havent changed abit. not a single bit. my cuz was texting me and that kinda made my lose focus on vehs and lans for abit, btu yeah. it was awesome meeting up with them.

i really dont want to go home. although this has been the suckiest of all holidays so far, with everyone having promos and me falling sick, this is the first time that i truely dont want to go back. i reallllly dont. i want to stay here and hang around with indra. i want to hang around with lania. and lihan. and andrea. and vera. and nicole. and claire. AHHH. i really dont want to go back.

did i mention that i've been hooked onto myspace? ADD ME IF U HAVE A MYSPACE! its www.myspace.com/simplysaraddictive OKAY?

=[[

now to get back to the packing.

i miss everyone already.

i'mmmm back!

2006-09-24T15:53:00.000+10:00

well. after a stinge with the stomach flu, i'm with with my laptop! ahhh, i miss you baby. i miss the internet. =]]]]

so whats been going on? been sitting at home and just stoning. went to taipan with nicole on saturday to tan/swim. but the bloody sun didnt come out. so we went in to bake cookies. nic u sick shit. she was scraping all the cookie dough off her fingers and said. 'NAH. ALL MY DEAD SKIN CELLS FOR YOU' ew!

but yeah. then we fell asleep, and the cookies got really soft. =[[

but its kinda dawned on me whos really a good, close friend that i should keep, and whos the superficial friend. and i guess, well. i dont know what to think anymore.

i think i've kinda made my mind up about university. i WILL be applying for the US. but where, i just dont know. i've kinda had my heard set on california, but then again, you never know. now i gotta take the SATs and all. boo.

ahhh this is droll. i really wanna go to uni now. =[[

PS: i updated the wishlist. ANYONE FEELING RICH?

i love shopping

2006-09-20T00:15:00.000+10:00

went out today, to try to get a replacement for my nano.couldnt fix it, so brother came and helped me sort it out. now i'm getting a new one tomorrow at 2pm. =]]

Rhinestone 'G' Buckle Belt
Genuine leather belt. 1 1/4" wide. Shiny, blackened metal 'G' logo belt buckle with encrusted rhinestones. Adjustable single prong closure. Domestic and/ or imported.
price: US$ 36

shit. you wanna see my drool? shit! theres a friggin pool of drool in front of me! ;ldfhjsklfdasjfnas. i want it! and 36USD is like, 60SGD! ahhhh. what am i gonna doooo??? i really want it! pfft. i dont even know if the guess here has it. hopefully...

went out with mom todya, and she SLURGED on M.A.C. stuff. omg i LOVE M.A.C. its fucking awesome! i bought like, 4 eyeliners. plus the brush and the blush yesterday.. omg. i'm spending a fortune there! and teh saleslady there was so nice! she gave me and mom a free makeover each!

omg i cannot believe that M.A.C.'s christmas brush set is coming out end oct! i wont be around!!! SHITTTTT! i reeeally really really want it!! =[[[[

and theres still the pigment that costs 35 bucks that i want.. oh shit. die, sarah. there goes your savings account.

ipod nano

2006-09-18T01:32:00.000+10:00

I GOT MY IPOD NANO TODAYY!! YAYY!!

just for u guys, who were wondering, its the black 8GB second generation one. its awesome! i cant help it! omg its so cute, and small and thin and just SO DAMN CUTE! omg i love it!

went to funan IT mall today. dad was sick, so we went straight to the point and started finding nanos and portable external hard drives. finally we went to this guy, and he offered us 23 bucks off the nano if we bought the nano AND the external hard drive from him. so yeah. we did that. and now the nano is MINE MINE MINE!

hm, but actually, maybe i shld have bought it from the net instead. free engraving. but its the same price! no discount! hmmmmm, yeah. i'm glad with this one. heeee. its so purty!!

okay i'm going out with jiawen tomorrow. i cant wait! its gonna be awesome awesome awesome! we gonna watch devil wears prada. YAYY! =]]

HOT GUYY!

2006-09-16T03:43:00.000+10:00

omgomgomg. just came back from shona's party. thats this cute guy there!! drool drool drool drool. shona's party was awesome! i mean like, the start was kinda slow and boriing. but after we started drinking, pooh! everything came together pretty well.

i'm quite shocked, actually. of all 8 guys there, there were at least 3 or 4 that pre definately knew. LOL. we're hanging around her crowd now, yeah. hrm. not that i mind. HAHAHA.

anyway. so yea. i really wish that i could have all the perks of melbourne and singapore together. REALLY. i know it cant happen, but they - i cant stop dreaming, can i?

i wanna add him on msn!!

i'm MISSED!

2006-09-13T13:50:00.000+10:00

why, i'm MISSED!

aw, this is so touching. i'm MISSED!

hee hee hee. okay seriously. i'm back! afteralot of problems along the way. i'm quite grateful that i managed to be back. so yes.

I'M MISSED!

aww. i'll be meeting y'll soon.=]]]

song: drop - timbaland

2006-09-10T21:37:00.000+10:00

i'm soooo happppyyy!! =]]]]

heee. i went out to DFO for shopping today. (direct factory outlet) stuff there is so cheap! but i didnt buy much stuff. wasnt really my kinda clothes. i bought a shirt with 'gold digger' on it. and a bag from dotti. its like, zebra striped and is silk. =]]

and then sophia sent us down to chadstone, where we carried on shopping. and we went to... GUESS.

oh my gosh! i love guess!! i went in, and i saw this shirt. it was black, with gold sequins on it, making out the word 'GUESS'. SO NICE! and it was off shoulder, too!

drooool.

and i bought it.

was fucking expensive. but im SOOO glad i bought it. its the cutest thing! ahhhh and i love it too!!

other than that, frano bought a keds shoe with strawberries, and emily a tie. not THAT kinda tie, but the kinda tie that u can wear with tanks and tubes and all. I LOVE ITTTTT!! i shall steal it from her!!

=]]]]

home in 2 days!

and i get to see nicole the fucktard and eilania the stick and vera the teddy and and and and and... =DDDD

fucking pissed.

2006-09-05T15:48:00.000+10:00

I WANT TO FUCKING GO HOME.

I DONT WANT TO DO ANYMORE OF FUCKING WANG'S SHIT OR DETAILED STUDY OR GENERAL TALKING OR WHATEVER THE FUCK. I'M SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF SCHOOL. I NEED A FUCKING BREAK. GET IT?

QUIT BEING SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE WANG.YOURE PISSING ME FUCKING OFF.

geez. get a fucking life and quit making us memorise all this kinda fucking shit.

2006-09-03T11:41:00.000+10:00

everything's changing, isnt it.

somehow i know. nothings going to be the same anymore.

back from ski camp!

2006-09-01T20:34:00.000+10:00

well well well. what can i say?

there wasnt really much skiing, cos winter was warm due to global warming. (BUT IT WAS LIKE 3 DEGREES IN THE MORNING. I FROZE MY SORRY ASS OFF!) so we went bushwalking and mountain biking. but cos of my low blood pressure, i couldnt bike long. we were going uphill for like, 15 min straight then we take a break. i get off my bike, and WOOH! i get this wave of dizziness. so not funny. i almost fainted!

so yeah. other than that, camp was pretty fun. we had a talk on defending ourselves when we drink, depression, did some dress up shit.. yeah. it was good. food was bad though. dee brought speakers, anad all night long we were blasting music, singing, dancing, and playing big 2 viet style. it was AWESOME!

so anyway. things are going pretty good. i need a holiday, yet i've got a major test on monday. so screwed. 2 math tests on tuesday. essay on nuclear power due on wednesday. how many ways can you say 'SARAH'S DEAD'?

annnyway. you kno the woman who gave us the talk on drinking? she was like a bouncer at a club. and she said once she saw a drunk man who mistook the wooden pillar as his girlfriend. and well. as she said 'splinters in the wrong places'. HAHA. and some of her stories are pretty scary too, i think its enough to put me off clubbing ever. she said once she saw a man leading this drunk woman out of the club and she stopped them cos she suspected foul play. she brought the woman to her office and tried to talk to her, but she couldnt talk. in 5 min, she had to lay her on the ground because her body became completely paralysed, yet she could still see and hear. pretty scary huh. and apparently her (the drugged woman) eyes were darting left and right, but there was nothing she could do. needless to say, she went to the hospital.

so guys. DON GO CLUBBING! i'm scared now! and i cant dance, anyway. i've got 2 left feet!

omg, should i have a bowl of instant noodles?? but i'm fat! i've had picnic bars, snickers bars, pretzels, chips... ALL IN THE LAST 2 NIGHTS! AHHHH

happy, shalalala

2006-08-26T22:59:00.000+10:00

YAYYY!!! so happy!! i went out today to buy my camp stuff. did i mention that i'm having a year 11 ski camp coming up? i had to buy ski gloves and all those kinda shit. so yeahs. was kinda rushed, but yea.

was in the camping shop, and i promise the shopkeeper was perving on my friend tanisha. SERIOUS. i think he thought was was hot or something. but she DID look hot. cant blame him. HAHAHA.

annnyway. i'm so happy! i just went online to talk to nicole (whos brb now cos she went to shit). now i really wanna get home! and i she sent me a picture with eilania in it. HAHAHA. okay. well at least i'm forewarned about it. HAHAHA. but anw. nic's so cute! i really miss being with all you guys! i wanna come home nownownow!!

sometimes i feel so torn. i love my life as a plc boarder to bits bits bits. but then again, i also love my friends in singapore. when 'm in singapore i cant wait to be abck, yet when i'm here i cant wait to get home. ahhhhhh.

I WANNA GET HOME!! =[[[

YESSS!!

2006-08-25T16:25:00.000+10:00

YESSSS!!!! HURHURHURHURHUR.

ITS FINALLY UP!!1 YOU EVIL BLOGGER!! HAHAHAHA.

(rejoicing)

haha i finally got all the html and shit right. why? i just went to another blog and copied the entry html off it. HAHAHA. yayy. dont worry, its none of your blogs that i got it from. HEEEEEE. and now i can call myself a blogger OFFICIALLY.

come here instead from now on yeah. yayy.

NICOLE PLEASE PICK UP YOUR BLOODY PHONE. I CALLED U AT LEAST 5 TIMES YESTERDAY. PFFT.

AND EILANIA! YOURE NOT SPARED FROM MY WRATH AS WELL. I CALLED YOU AT LEAST TWICE!

ps: eilania. i called your home too. but phone had a problem. so tell your mom it wasnt a prank call!

2006-08-25T15:50:00.000+10:00

i had the fucking worst day ever.

i had 2 tests, which i basically failed. omg what a fucking shit day. and i spen the whole of last night, resisting this book which i borrowed from the library for the bloody test. and its fucked ip. THANKS.

this blogspot still isnt fuckign working properly.

ARRRGH

please work properly.

2006-08-24T16:23:00.000+10:00

okay. i am so cut. this thing isnt working out. i want to CRYYYYYY.

now the bloody comp room is filled with people. i cant plug my laptop in. i've got a specalist math and physics test due tmr. as well as 5 bloody essays to copy into my chinese zhuowenbu. AHHHH.

nic, are you okay? i'm gonna pop you a call soon okay? maybe friday night or something. MAKE SURE YOU PICK UP!!

WORK PLEASE!!

2006-08-24T15:47:00.000+10:00

OMG PLEASE WORK.

this is killing me. i think i spent the last few days trying to understand bloody blogger. HOW ANNOYING. i want to kill blogspot. hahaha. but now i dont. I'VE FIGURED EVERYTHING OUT! YAYNESS.

okay. so this is the place to be. the COOL place. =]]]

hello.

2006-08-21T10:32:00.000+10:00

hellllo.

trying this out.

this work?

YESSSS.

rahrah.out